it and began to see the light. In no time she was asking all kinds of questions about TV and finally we had a long talk and I told her how I got into it."

"How did you", I asked. As he answered me we began to walk out into the grounds. We had both lost most of our nervousness during out conversation.

"Well, I had two sisters, one two years older and one four years older. I never wore their clothes like some of the histories say others did, but, well, I sort of thought they got the best deal in everything. I sort of envied them. I did see them naked quite a few times and their beauty was attractive to me. I wished I could be as pretty I guess or something like that. It's so hard when no one thing occurs

to give you a clue. I guess I just thought a girl's life was ideal or I should have been a girl. Still I think some- times that something might have happened that I don't re- member because I keep having the same dream over and over." "want to tell me"? I asked.

"Sure".

We sat down in the shade of a big tree and spread our full skirts out in pretty circles. If a helicopter had flown over they would have seen two lovely girls just talk- ing together on the grass. Anna's hair flowed out from her head in lovely long curls. Mine was a bob style, but I

often wished I could afford another one like his.

"Well, it usually starts at school. I'm on a Merry- go-Round with this girl. She might be my sister or she might be a girl I just knew. I did like her a lot I remem- ber. It was in the first grade so I must have been six at the time. We are comparing each other as kids do. Suddenly she says that my shoes are just like hers and I look down and sure enough they are. They were the corrective oxfords that children wear, and there is no difference between the boys and the girls types. Well, I can't explain it but I was thrilled to see that she wasn't making fun of the fact that our shoes were alike. She liked it and it brought us closer together. Then the dream ends just like that."

"Any other dreams"? I prompted.

"Yes, about a shoe store only its hazy. I am looking at shoes and the man shows me several pairs.

Suddenly I